it rains and it pours when you’re out on your own.

“You want to cry aloud for your mistakes. But to tell the truth the world doesn’t need any more of that sound.”

i can hear your sobs.

it penetrates my senses.

but i wont let it get to my heart.

call me selfish but watching you hurt will break me.

you’re all that matters to me in this godforsaken world.

anything that hurts you, will rip me into shreds so minute i will never be fixed up ever again.

so pardon me if i seem deaf to your sorrows.

 

damn those tears. they always find a way to dodge my escape mechanisms.

your ex-lover is dead.

i will not let you get to me. this will be the last time i feel anything, even hatred, for you. you are a waste of space, a waste of my time and a scum of the earth.

good riddance to bad rubbish you undeserving, selfish, disgusting, ungrateful, fugly-ass bastard. you are everything i despise and more.

all of this time you thought i was sad, i was trying to remember your name

oh you pathetic excuse for a human being, why don’t you do us all a favour and just shrivel up and die. i am pretty confident at this point that nobody will ever love you but yourself and your clueless parents. i’d weep for the pathetic life you lead, but then again, you’re not worth a single tear to say the least. i truly wish you the worst in life.

congratulations, you’ve made the girl who rarely hates people hate you.

just hearing your name, it disgusts me. weird huh? just a few months ago i used to love chanting it and now just the mere thought of it sends me reeling in aversion so deep-rooted it activates the gag reflex in me.

if only i could erase your whole chapter out of my memory, never to be seen again. i doubt i’d miss a single second of it.

gone without a trace.                               i wish.

 

you’ll be my innocence and i’ll be your sin.

a/k/a I.D.I.O.T

LOOK ALIVE, SUNSHINE.

so i watched black swan the other day. with 2 of my most favourite ladies. we barely spent time talking, but just being there with them made me so damn happy. i can’t even imagine how my life would have been without them why so cheesy.

everytime he crosses my mind, i can’t help but be happy i called it quits. he’s slowly turning out to be the exact kind of person i dislike. i’m so over it. penguins, here i come.

i still can't believe i almost did that. i still can't wrap my head around it.
what. was. i. thinking.

now i call upon you, Mr. Asphyx!

why do i feel this way? happiness eludes me. and the apathy sets in. i try to shake it off. but it clings on to me with its unyielding, claw-like grip. slowly squeezing the last ounce of life out of me. and then i’m left with all but pessimism. why bother? you never had control over life anyway.

i sound too damn dark and twisted. but eerily enough, i like it. it puts a smile on my face.

keep it in the silent

shhhh. not a word. i know i’m back, but nobody else needs to. if there’s any soul out there, still hanging on the hopeless cause that is my return, run away and never look back.

i do reach out to grab you, believe me, i do. reluctantly though, i’ll admit. why the hesitance, you moronic woman? maybe i want you to fall. i want to watch you fall. watch with curious eyes as you fall. deep. into the dark pitless vacuum. never to return. is that a smile i see? i hope not. twisted.

i doubt that whole chunk made any sense. it doesnt even make sense to me. somehow i had to write it down though.

this me from now on. deal with it, bitches.

where we gonna go from here

HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!

i know i haven’t blogged in like forever. ahh well. i will. soon. i guess(:

count ‘em one two THREE

i chopped off my fringe!

maybe a bit of the brain too. that probably explains the retarded poses. blame the fratellis(: